Wednesday, January 31, 2007

lalalahs.

thanks people,
i meant those who cared for me(:
you guys rocks!

stay by me, and i'll stay by you.
it's a promise.

Tuesday, January 30, 2007

Saturday, January 27, 2007

came back from camp, didn't win the class cheer, sadd.. ytd, everybody was reluctant to go to the camp. allright, not everyone. SOME of the classes that were having camp ytd. before that, everyone was like cursing the P. How can she say the WE wanted the camp? Riot!! xD
but it was really idiotic. who the hell wanted a class camp. i hate camps, but i love to play with friends and create special bondings between classmates, and also, unite as one class; girls and boys mixed ( rather than gals with gals, boys with boys )... unity is strength!
our cheer sounds like this:

Early morning late at night,
S3 charges out to fight.
All united act as one,
We will win the 'war' this time!
[We...will win the war! x3]
One More Time~
[We...will win the war! x3]
One Last Time~
[We...will win the war! x3]
ooooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~~
S3!!~

hahas. it was hard for us to rmb the cheer. it's new, well, at least for me... so i kinda forgot bout it. then we learnt the cheer, went for games and so. there was one station where people have to go up and act, then ur classmate guess what u acting. it was easy, but everyone was kinda paiseh to go up to act. then there was this hunting thingy. i mean, come up with groups of 5, den one grp will be the SearchTeam, while others all hide. aim of the game is to find all ur classmates in the grps back. the whole school was freakingass dark. the only clue to our hiding places were the light sticks. the instructor told us that, if we were to hear or see anything, pls not alert other pple, in case they couldn't see or hear, and u might be scaring them. this sentence actually scares me off. say until like tat, means sure, BOUND to have smth around de lorhs. get wad i mean? then they also tell the SearchTeam that any light sticks found on the floor meant that a grp was hiding near by. my grp was the 1st to get found. no fun~ and we were sooooooooooo bored waiting for the others in the canteen. it was scary, since it was like around 10+ in the nite when we played that game. DianYong was brave going into the toilets and opening doors to see if anyone's in there. praise the Lord! after that, around minutes later, the game ended, SearchTeam failed! x) we went to bath, and the time given was like, NOT ENOUGH! all crowding. while q-ing to bathe, i heard stories bout the study area and the toilet beside the Art room. the tales were kinda convincing i suppose, but yet unbelievable. someone in the SearchTeam claimed that she saw a ghost. ok, not one but 2 i suppose. her mood was like totally change, so i got worried for her. she looked so serious. it shocked me, but as she said she saw it, i can feel my hair stand. i wanted to ask where she saw it, but seeing her like that, i doubt she will reply me lahh... so i kept quiet. thinking bout it,,, which school never nao gui before?? LOLS. so is a matter of - to believe or not to.
that night, i slept on top of Dian Yong. meaning i slept at the space above her head, don't think anyhow. then as she prayed, i listened (sorry i was rude), and then, AMEN. lols. she told me bout her story when she was converted to a Christian, and how the Chinese God kinda like punished her. she went thru alot of pain and suffering, but with her faith in God, she finally experienced God. pple said she was a depressed girl last year, giving her a nick called 'depression girl', but this year, she's like totally changed. she told me alot alot and alot, almost 1hr+ bout her life, God and such. thnks alot, Dian Yong! thanks for sharing ur story with me. and telling me all those things bout God. at 1st i tot u hated me, and so you didn't really like talking to me or smth... i kept trying my best to talk and smile at you, be friends with you. & altho i felt tired, but i really wished i could continue listening to ur stories. they touched me, they amused me, excite me, and of course, i kinda envy you. hehe. i can't be a Christian, nor can i be one behind my parent's back. `coz they sure will find out... so, my church friends was like, telling me to pray, and they too helped me pray. yea, so as i was saying, i would like to continue to hear you tell me more stories. haha... IF ONLY THAT `CHER DIN WALKED IN YTD NIGHT...
this morning, woke up early, and it's like i only had 4hrs of sleep. well, played games, i was in badminton. damn malu coz duno how to play, or rather, where to stand to serve, all that. so.. aiya, lose lor... captain's ball we won 1st.

Samuel's so sweet(:
thnks for patting my head everyday x)

&& we will see how it goes on Monday.
i'm waiting . . .

Wednesday, January 24, 2007

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

Friday, January 19, 2007

Saturday, January 13, 2007

today was the cca bazzaar.Choir had to sing in front of all those people, damn. I was not very nervous but kept going out of tune. VERY CLEAR, i went out of tune. oh no, not at this time! but, forget it. `cause i know, people in singapore-
guys: eeee, join Choir? so sissy... i don't want. i go join NCC/NPCC/SCOUTS/etc.
girls: erm, i think i would rather join Band/ChineseOrchestra/ChineseDance.

and so, only people who really loves to sing, who really haven the passion in music, and of `cause wants to join choir, joined. if not, it will be that the sec 1 join, then the friend follow. well, so i know, Choir no hope de. lols. not aiming low, but then, that's what people think what. so we all go "La-Ke" (pull them in). we don't have a choice right? we are in need of those juniors. &&D yet they all went to other CCAs.

but yet, it's not really their fault. look at the canteen.
the Band were playing those music so smoothly (i suppose), and so nice, of `cause they attracted attention of the kids right... so the sec1s' all stupid stupid go join band =x i have to admit their band uni is nice larhs! but then you guys don't know how tedious Band is. So many band practises, teacher so fierce. and, with Miss Lai there, wahh, hell lorhs.
then there goes the Chinese Orchestra beside the band. they all shouting shouting, using a cone-shape like thingy that makes their voice louder. then giving out balloons, with CO written on them, etc. i also have to admit the costume is quite nice larhs, esp for the guys. and their song also not bad. i not sure bout their practises per week larhs, but then i know their `cher sometimes quite funny, sometimes quite fierce, and is strict larhs. and their songs all very olden types de i suppose. i mean, very china-rised. if you love China and you love those kind of china-china songs, and you wan join co, i have nothing to say, of course.
there's also this lion dance thingy, and drums thingy.think girls cant join bah? i not sure bout it. shirt's nice nice. and performances are well done! bad art, tiring bah? hahas.
then there was this wu-shu. quite nice, but then your punch and everything have to be strong i think. costume's always change, but is very nice. practises i dunno when, but then the teacher damn gay.
oh, there's also this Chinese dance. the performance today was really cool=D
and mostly chiobu-s can. but the thing is that, guys can't join i think. costumes think also change change change de. dance steps' are nice. but you have to put make up also. and those kinda like ballet clothes, but is chi dance de. and the teacher is also that wu-shu `cher---a botak head look-like-gay `cher!
then, how about badminton? they very high lorhs. hahas and also not alot of people. so badminton i don't know. their shirt is nice, the couch is from China, if he in bad mood, horhor. the thing is that their training also alot alot. and that very tiring de. alot of my friends wanna quit lorhs, but didn't. and choosing badminton as CCA, if you don't qualify for the team then how? this one i don't know. `coz for me, i was told to go in the nite session, and somemore have to pay $$. so i don't know for you all lorhs.
and again, if you love playing badminton as a sports, i can't stop you from joining, but can also try track and field(:
well, about other sports cca like basketball, netball, table tennis, etc. i dunno bout this larhs. haha (`coz i din even see where's their booth??) but basketball alot of tall tall people larhs, and maybe shuai ge lorhs =x and netball thing is always playplayplay. so shld be fun, if you loved netball.

UNIFORMGROUPS
then we come to the Red Cross. Yawns, all like sot sot people like that. desperate for pple liddat can-.-" so DAMN HIGH can... keep shouting shouting. hey come`on, even the choir people also never use our mouths to SING, wth should you people shout shout shout sososo loudly, making such a commotion?! hurting people's ear can anot?! red cross. their uni not really very unique also what. same same thorugh-out. Zzz. right, i'm not biased against them ok. their training i don't know anything, and i'm not interested in it. good thing is, you can learn then save people. bad thing is that you have to learn to march. good thing is, you can march in the parade square and steal all the attention from other cca-s like choir=.=" and bad thing is, the uniform so white(easy dirty), you have to stand under the hot hot hot sun to march. poor thing. and also, like choir, red cross not alot of guys. oh and bad thing is, if you are afraid of blood, and will probably FAINT when seeing blood, then, PLEASE, join something else.
then there's the scouts. alright, you can say i'm supportive of it. -wuzee helped me to promote choir.
-wenjie told me when the training is -alot of my friends were inside sea-scouts -their booth was unique. well, can see that, i support them. Sharlynn even wanted to join them=D the time is every friday, from around 3pm or 4pm to 6pm; which is quite quite slacking! one week only one time! and like only 3 to 4 hours one week. and their uniform is so nice~ and the people in scouts all very cheeky de. and also! they will learn how to cook, have camps, learn lots`a things, and also have fun!! lols, AND~ this year, girls can also join! eeek, why this year then say??! but the bad part is, yea, they too have to build the cross thingy over and over again, they have to learn to tie tight tight knots, and they also have to march under the hot sun. AWHS.
now, to the ncc. only boys are allowed. greengreen de. but alot of people join. and all they do is march march march, under the hot sun.
then npcc lehx, both genders allowed, and i love their uniform. looked like police, dark blue, very cool. and GaoYan everytime wear it, i was like: wow, cool man. so nice... but all they do, is also march march and march, under the hot sun.

*note: of `coz i didn't forget. people who were in performing group need to do well, to let the school be proud and well-known. people who were in teams for competitions, have to work very hard, to win! and uniform groups, have to march well, nice and proper, and also,,, POLISH THEIR SHOE WELL. and that means, clean and shiny.

well, and also not forgetting the ava people. damn funny la, that Jeremy. he hold the mike and went round the whole canteen and places where sec1 people are, and keep repeating : JOIN AVA, JOIN AVA, JOIN AVA, ... ... ... LOLS. and when band playing the song, no1 can hear him, he turned on full blast and started singing along with the song: don't join the band, don't join the band. oh gosh, he's so humorous. the next thing is that he on the song using laptop i think, and started singing~people keep telling him to lower down the volume. he seems to be enjoying himself alot.
oh, of `coz not he holding the mike and walking around. JiaJun and Sara was holding on and pushing the speaker following behind him. hahas. the good thing bout ava, (i think), is that very slack, and they are important people. hahaha. and they don't need to wear anything special, unique. but plain and simple, uniform or pe-tshirt. so shuang lorhs. hahas. go go AVA = DD

i'm once again back larhs. hahas. today was fun and high. and i think i lost my voice. but then i saw him larhs. he came to help out in choir. i was having glances at him, see he got change anot. but, didn't want to speak to him.
and yet, saw another him. was kinda slacking, sitting at the table and waiting for people to come and write their name. i didn't want to even look at him. i was afraid that i can't control myself. but then, i suddenly tot of smth. well dude, if someone asked you bout our relations or anything and said smth that hurt-ed you, making you have the urge to feel fan and to make everything goes so wrong, pls, do what you think your heart want to do. i can't stand it already. i'm slitting, cutting and dripping comes along. i'm not a kid anymore, yet i'm doing stupid stuffs. everyone's been leaving me, one after another. like what they say, the new one comes along and the old ones go. is that really true? if that's the case, can i keep the old ones instead? my heart's hurting, ya`noe. it's painful can. come`on. we were only like friends friends, only adding something special. an initial that i tot i can keep in my hurt forever. we weren't even back together after the break up in last last dec. but why does my hurt hurt? eh? i'm feeling weird. maybe there's something wrong with my hurt. maybe it contracted something that no one else can heal. guess i'll lean on to God and let time and God heal me. don't ask me to go pei other pple. i only want to pei you. don't tell me that i still have lots of friends, so it won't make a difference w/o you. that's craps craps and CRAPS. i'm making myself clear once and for all. once a friend, forever a friend. losing a friend = losing a part of my flesh, a part of my heart. not sms-ing or talking or getting into contact with you pple, DOESN'T MEAN that i've forgotten bout you guys. i noe my memory sucks alright, but not on the terms : friendship. whatever is it, memories are all kept deep in my heart. it's not meant to be forgotten, so i will not. i'm so troubled. depressed. stress. it's now not what you shld do. is what i shld do. what shld i do?? god-damn.

i'm so tired.

missyoulots.

Friday, January 12, 2007

heys, i'm back! today, rain damn big larhs~ i'm sosososo drenched. andd, fed up over the project thingy. talking over the phone with sharlynn and sooching, making me SO wanna scold the word:
CHEEBYE.

now no mood to blog lorhs. sis just cut her hair. hahas. look a little toot. and i went to my aunt's house just now, after i went jp. i drank lots of red wine, and i felt SOSOSO giddy, even by this very second. i'm been having lots of problems. i mean, not really problems, but just things that bugged my about in my mind. i can't stop thinking of them every sec. and every sec thinking of them makes me wanna cry. sigh. maybe i can drown my sorrows in beerWINE.

a little msg to my you-know-who... maybe he ain't even reading my blog. but just wanna say, thanks for all those days when u were so sweet to me. i know, i know, that i know. Once school reopen, the bond between us will suresuresure become smaller. i knew this would happen, so i don't mind you letting my hand go. i don't wan you to feel trouble over it, i don't wan you to fan over it. i want you to concentrate on your studies. if letting go of my hand settles everything, then i will let you go. But i won't let it rest.. you did your part in the holidays,now it was my turn. Even if we went seperate ways, i will still stay as your Angel and protect you, watch over you, till the day i perish. i wasn't your fault that i slit my hand. it wasn't your fault that i felt depressed and stressed. it was all my fault. sigh. mayb i'll continue when i think of something to write.

Sunday, January 07, 2007

today went out with RC with alot of pple. we went alot of places, i don't wanna gif detail larhs. then saw how a person killed a fish, i mean: smash(times 5-7 times) , den skin the scales. oh dear, its awful. that poor fish... after going to the outing, i went to cut my hair.

it turns out to be,well, not really what i expected. but it's still okay, except the frindge, which is like shit. eeeeew. and my mom and sis said i looked more ah lian with this hairstyle. i am like so excited to let pple see and give bad comments. hahas.. but now the problem is, i cant tye it up. so sure tio caught lorhs... and now is like, i no pin! AND AND AND... it's a disaster coz i dunno how to tie my hair. i mean, which technic to use to tie? it's like so short can...

look more ah lian, i like it. hahas, but...
now i myself dun even noe i shld like it anot.
yes?
no?
bleahx.
it's okay.

time let's hair grows(:

Friday, January 05, 2007

Monday, January 01, 2007

i'm back!
today i kana jailed at home.
i slept at 3 yesterday;
was talking on the phone with Winston.
He was so funny,
telling me bout stuffs bout his humorous friend.
oh my gosh,, it's really funny can!
&& my sis din came back home till 7am this morning.
so i was like, sleeping alone.
luckily my dad came to off the lights for me.
Woots!

today i woke up only at near 4pm.
lols,, yea i'm a pig i know.
but i just enjoy sleeping.
but missed SiewPing's 8 calls.
[sorry!]
so in the end she called me and told me that she had got me a flier job.
1000pieces for $15.
she got for me 3000pieces, even when i haven even said if i wanted any.
hahas, but thanks anyways.
she said she will confirm time with me tonite,
but she haven call me yet.
what happen leh?

tml going play badminton.
iamguilty.
`cause i wasn't able to go cck with Ting Fang to play badminton with Jia Yong.
he said it was too far for him to come all the way here to play,
as he live in Yishun.
wow. andd i noe for sure my mom wun allow me to go cck so far.
so no choice, he not coming.
so tml i play 2hrs with Ting Fang lorhs.
Sorry to JiaYong!

and also going shopping with mom, sis and aunties tml.
not sure i going anot.
coz siew ping haven tell me the time yet!!
ahhhhhhhhhhhs!
HOPESHECALLMEASAP!~
i need the time for tml.
if the time is like in the afternoon, den mayb i cant make it to go shopping...
then my bag, shirt, etc, all gone,
can't buy liaos.

so,
job or shopping?
to earn or to spend?
family or friend?

URGH.
toughchoice=x




BYEBYEto2006 ;;
HELLOto2007! :D

hahas.
a brand new year ahead,
a brand new school life (i suppose),
brand new wishes.
and... what else?
brand new friends...?
xP

will be in different classes with my best 3 friends,
who were with me through thick and thin.
Sad.
andd of c0zz,
wishing all those pri.6 students who were promoted to sec1,
to jiayou in their studies,, not pat-tuo w0rx =x
and also to wish them all the best, enjoying their new environment and school life(:

Now,, i'm like counting down all by myself.
5
4
3
2
1
.
..
...
hoorays?

lols.
had been to the countdown to 2007 celebration at the community centre.
and the music there was damnitloud!
so i can't take it and went home.
oh man,, i wonder will those aunties and uncles go deaf,
coz they all sitting just a few metres away from the BIG speaker;
and i was like, moremoremore few metres away from the BIG speaker.
the performances were like craps,, entertaining both the old and the kidsssss;
NOTTHETEENAGERS-LIKEME.
well, and for Ting Fang.
hahas.
before that, i followed her to expo for service.
she went there for fun, oh gosh, she actually said that.
i went there to enjoy myself and to entrust myself to God.
i sing, i pray, i got excited. andd of coz, i was supercold&&freezing.
TingFang went to the front, like what i did on sat.
then we sang auld lang sye(izzit correct spelling?)
and the guy beside me, whom i duno, was like singing as he put my hand behind my back.
i wanted to do the same thing, but he too tall.
so i just stayed there, both hands at the front =x

Kelvin was like, asking me after that,
if i knew tat guy.
i shook my head and he laughed.
Hey, so what if it's strangers?
the moment he put his hands there, i can sense the warmth of...
of dunno what larhs, i duno how to describe.
and he was like praying for me too(:

hahas.
after that i went to causeway point,
to hunt for MeiYi's present.
on sat, i went to watch movie,
DeathNote2 and den ltr went expo for the service.
after the evening service, we were told that sun got thanksgiving.
so we need pick folded paper, and see who we chosed.
i chosed MeiYi.
and i was wondering what i could get for her.

So during the huntingforpresents period,
i went to the shop,
forgotten the name, but inside all christian stuff.
i bought a cup, intro-ed by the lady there.
it was cute cute andd cute!
a doggy and heartx heartx =D

During the cgm,
we introduce ourselves,
sang,
prayed,
and guessed who's our individual Angel.
(meaning the person who picked u, and gif u present, is the angel).
i hope MeiYi likes my present.
She said she was actually going to buy a mug too.
&&D,,
i was shocked actually.
`cause i didn't think,
my angel was actually Jia Yong,
the guitarist.
Actually his character reminds me of Daryl -.-"
but he muchmuchmuch better((:
somemore both of them also CHC de.
andd,, also plays the guitar.
O_o

but well,
i need to thank Jia Yong!
for the wonderful present~
hoorays for u=D
and also thanks to ShuYun and SiewPing,
for choosing the present and wrapping it xD
i guess JiaYong wasn't up to getting gifts for a girl? =x

But anyways, i enjoyed myself alot
ever since i was with my new friends here.
So i thank God for letting me know them.
And i was always touched by God. hahas.


My New Year wishes:
1) stay happy happy
2) get good good results
3) go on diet and slimslimslim down!!
4) get a dog, omg@@@
5) more friends=D
6) wantmymomtoshutherfreakingmouthup!
7) wantmymomtounderstandmemore>:(

the last two was for my mom.
she still treats me like as if i'm a small kid.
i know she cared, but she don't give me enough freedom bah?
i'm aready 14 and 15 next year,
and still, everytime i go out late,
pple will still send me home.
and somemore she's stopping me from going out with my classmates who are boys.
what's the matter? they won't eat me up right?!
andd i always wanted to tell her one thing.
Themoreshestopsmefromdoingthings,,,
themoreirebel.
againstme&&usuffer.
i am serious.
look, ever since a go sec2,
and i want to do it my way,
she stopped me from this and that,
and stopped me from going out with friends, etc.
i've had enough.
i wished she could understand me more,
allow me to go to church,
allow me to be a christian.
is it tat difficult?
tat's how i want my life to be, that's how i love God, i want to be with him.
and she, dun even think of stopping me.
i wished she could understand me more,
spending my times on friends and outdoors rather than stuck at home and play com.
i get more joy outside ya`noe?
she just don't understand me.
i say one sentence and off she go, shooting tons of bullets back at me.
merely one sentence, she used everything she could find to reply me, and that was nagging nagging and more naggings.

one day, i believe,
when i grow up,
i'm going to show her,
i can stand on my own.
andd that i am not a 3yr old,
and that i will get what i want, be what i want.
peace out -

And once again, a very happy new year for all !!

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