Friday, May 04, 2007
OH MAII GAWD.i'm stuck here, with 2 cute, black kittens,
which is
NOT drinking anything
NOR can it eat anything,
and i can't do anything to help them,
but to cry;how pathetic.rights, i broke down today, during 8am plus.
after pledge, i called my mom immediately,
asking how's the kittens.
I'M DAMN AFRAID THEY DIE LAAAAAAHH.she said they are still mewing.
imagine a cat mewing all day, and then not eating nor drinking anything!! how long will this last?!i was relieved they're still alive though.
then i asked for a request.
i requested my mom to try feeding them with milk.
she agreed though, not like my dad, not agreeing to anything D:
then i was like, talking talking;
"can help me feed..? i scared they die leh.. it already 16hours never eat and drink liao... *choke*"
yea, right on;
damnati0n, my tears flowed out;
right in front of peichuan's eyes.
he was shocked though, and he handed me tissues.
thanks pc...then aaron came sitting next to me, upon seeing me cry.
thanks for the concern, aaron.-
i really cannot control myself lahh.
then when i cry, is tears keep flowing, cannot stop.
then i cannot speak properly,
so i guess my mom knows that i'm crying.
-
sighs..
then eng lesson, daryl was seperated from aaron by miss junaidah,
so he sat at yingjie's table, which is beside me,
then asked me what happened.
so i said,
can i sms you instead..?he nodded, so i start to type.
i know it's stupid, sms-ing someone who's just sitting beside me,but i know, i might just break down again if i ever spoke to him about it.so, er, thanks to daryl too. at least i know he cares.damn is all i can say.
i'm like, so wtf, cannot even take care of such small kittens.
hais...
everytime thinking about them makes me wanna cry;
thinking about them dying coz of hunger makes me so fucking sad.
why don't they just drink the milk...?~searching for penghwee today through sms is hard tho.
i din know he din bring his phone.
so i kept sms-ing him,
trying to get his reply so i can ask bout the kitten.
so that at least i know he got ways to calm me down,
and solutions to solve it...
hais. there's solutions which i can take,
lots of them.
but i just...
dunno lah...
it's now 4.
it's been
ONE WHOLE DAY since they eat.
even malays who fast don't starve for 1 whole day, ain't it??and now they kept mewing, i really don't know what they want.
get me outta this.i really wanna save them, but how?!fuck.pray, help me pray.
pray that they will be alright.
pray that they won't die.
pray that i can save them.
pray that they will grow up to be big mama cats.
gosh, tears*peichuan said,
when he saw me cry, he felt like crying too.
coz he can feel the sadness within me.
if he didn't control, he'd break down too.
so,
guess how pathetic-ally sad i am.
if i wasn't sad, i wouldn't have cried ok.
just imagine.
gah, whatever they want, do it.let them get as many good memories as they want.i shan't bother anymore.i admit i'm jealous.coz i don't have friends as close as they both are, ok?why do i say this?coz i'm being left out again.it's always like that.this world is a torture for me.i hate relationships,i hate friendships,and i fucking hate myself.-theEND-
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